I feel really immature right about now. For a good while I just kept denying the color revolution hints to the point where even my very lib Dad was able to point them out. Feel like such a complete jackass, it just feels so fucking different when you're in the moment and it's your country down the line. That doesn't mean I don't have the same solidarity for all global south nations but this one just felt so personal. What's happening in Bangladesh right now seems like nothing compared to the horrific struggle that West Asia has endured, but I guess I'm joining the club.
But yeah, they literally took over my country and there's nothing I, a diaspora bengali, can do about it. Sometimes it feels like I have survivors guilt, that I got out of the country and immigrated to the imperial core (well my parents did) where I could live a far more comfortable life while a lot of my peers even here in the US are living much harder lives.
This is also compounded by the fact that I live in a white picket fence neighborhood where every neighborhood family are Trumpers or respectful Kamala-ists who are just "simple folk" out raising their family. My dad recently hanged up an American flag and a Bangladeshi flag on our lawn and now I'm just sick even thinking about it. I might just tell my dad to take it american flag down if not both (he keeps telling me there's some homeowner association "law" that you have to have the USian flag alongside other flags). The only thing that really cheers me up besides treats is Yahya Sinwar and the axis of resistance taking Israel down screw by screw.
Fuck the USA. I will never forget this moment in my entire fucking life. I just feel very off right now and this was my vent post. Part of me wishes that this wasn't a takeover, but that part of me is slowly going away every passing second.
I know how you feel. So many vietnamese americans do not give a shit about much except getting a good job, which is fair, but also becomes maddening when they get curious about my own discontent because they canât seem to understand why I dislike a country that benefits me. Thatâs exactly why. This whole timeline was engineered to destroy my country and siphon people to the west while denying our own history.
Iâm not pretending life wouldâve been elsewhere or that socialism wouldâve launched us to a new galaxy by now. But I resent receiving the benefits of plunder from my own country while being surrounded by people who donât give a shit about anything beyond low taxes and raving on the weekend. Even the southern shills make no sense because the CIA killed their leader and led their puppet state to fall. Really there shouldnât be any vietnamese person in the US who support it because it stabbed everyone in the back.
I donât automatically hate every whitey, nor do I seek to socialize with exclusively viet people. But it does become tiresome when everyone you meet is interested in assimilating while only retaining the aesthetics of being asian, and only the aesthetics that are profitable and marketable. We shouldnât get too uppity by learning our history of resistance or exploitation by the west!! Unless itâs some dog shit liberal performative action that doesnât change anything.
Occupied Palestine had made it much harder for most Bangladeshis to assimilate completely (we have the based AF no entry to Zionist entity) but the reactionary south Asian shitlib politics is bursting through the seams.
Like no shit since my parents were working class immigrants who came to the US to make money and they didn't have the time or education I had to study Marxism, but sometimes it's tiring to hear them sound no better than the Trumper who sits on his lawn all the day watching cars zoom past.
My family is happy that Sheikh Hasina is gone, but I don't think they can see the forest for the trees.
Pretty much, you'll get people saying Hamas bad (in the whole bothsidesy way) and that Indians are secretly trying to take over Bangladesh. My Dad pretty much reverts into anti-Indian racism when he runs out of actual material analysis instead of shutting up.
In my experiences no, being on the receiving end of the Hindu nationalists persecution has seem to made the rest of south Asian Diaspora politics a bit better