You're not onto anything so there's no need to "hold on". Several people did the same thing without some stupid disorder being The Reason Why.
I pirated applications and games at 9 because remotely breathing in my family's presence was the equivalent of screaming fire in a crowded theater. Why would I ask them anything when I can ask Google? Google won't hit me, tie me to a chair, lock me in a basement, scream at me, spit on me, or take all my possessions indefinitely. Google also won't tell professional child abusers what I searched so that can be used to emotionally abuse me more.
Why would I ask people who would scream at me for asking for a 64¢ candy bar, about a $200 application? Why would I tell them about something illegal? That's just asking for drama. But sure, some stupid ass puzzle piece Made Me So Smart and that's why I pirated gamemaker and fl studio. The same puzzle piece that made me so (r word) and unfit for society that I needed to be locked away in an institution that dumbed me down into a dead weight.
Also using a computer is as easy as playing a video game. The directions and definitions are straightforward. Some stupid puzzle piece didn't made a kid know how to do something, the kid taught themselves by reading. Which the people pointing to some stupid puzzle piece can do as well, instead of reducing a human being to some stupid ass puzzle piece. Literally dehumanizing but I'm ready to be the problem, as a human asking to be treated as a human. Downvotes mean nothing.