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Hi everyone, I'm new here. I've got BP 2, and it's been very rough.
TL;DR: Was doing poorly, but am doing better now even during a major change in circumstances, thanks to quitting alcohol and starting new meds.
Expanded: Four months ago a relative and I were given a notice of termination of residency: move out or else, pretty much. (It wasn't our fault; the owner simply wanted his house back.) This just happened to occur during one of the worst mixed episodes I have had in a long time, and I had been having meldtowns at least once per week. It all came to a head when I completely lost my shit, screaming & breaking things, and scaring my family. I got picked up by a police officer to be taken to the hospital the next day. Being there was very disturbing, and since I was on a voluntary hold and they weren't actually helping, l walked out.
I resolved to quit alcohol and other possibly damaging drugs, and get on meds.
This last month has been better. We only spent one night homeless, stealth camping with my cat in national forest land. A relative is letting us stay at their place, but the house was/is a disaster zone of hoarding and neglect. We've been cleaning and fixing things, but there is still no room inside the house to sleep, and it smells of cat piss. We've been sleeping in the carport and covered porch. In a trailer park :(
Even though I'm better than I was, my mood still fluctuates, and I sometimes 'hear' some people thinking negative things about me. And another relative who has been living in this house has regular outbursts of his own, so I have to navigate this situation carefully.
All in all, it's been a chnge for the better, but my housing situation can't last.
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Wow. Sad to hear your situation but so happy to hear you are doing well, staying on your meds and most importantly staying positive.
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Also glad to hear you have found the positive benefits of not drinking. That helped stabilize me so much too. There’s also a stopdrinking community that I mod should you want/need it as well.
Thanks a lot, Zerlyna. I was unsure about sharing, but figured why not.
Yeah, I actually felt an immediate relief when I stopped drinking. I might pop into the stopdrinking community, but really I've had zero issues so far. No DTs, and no cravings whatsoever. It's nice to be from such a useless substance!
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That's tough. Remember this situation is temporary and that you're working towards improving it. Slow, incremental steps have been key to my recovery.
Thanks for the encouragement. Yeah, things are definitey getting better, and this is the place I need to be at for now.