For someone with Borderline Personality Disorder, this really made me cry. I wish I could undo my transference onto people. That is why I choose to stay alone nowadays. This was motivating to reflect upon and remember to keep up with my mental health goals.
I don’t think you need to stay alone. I would have loved this person and stayed with her until the end of the time, all issues and illness included. My only ask was that she stop her illness from attacking me, but she never could.
So you don’t need to be alone. You just need to trust and be as stable as possible for that one person who’s willing to ride it out with you.