I've been on a slow but steady decline for the past several years. I don't move at all, barely leaving my room let alone the house; I've taken to eating shit I order out instead of cooking meals myself; I don't get involved with any local orgs besides sending dues every month; I haven't read a book in months; I regularly fail to perform bare minimum hygiene. The only reason I'm able to keep alive at all is because I haven't moved out of my parents' house, burdening them with helping me. It would be understandable if I was living hand to mouth and had barely any free time, but I am one of the small percent of burgers who isn't a month away from destitution and I have more than enough free time. Not to mention I receive no shortage of help.
Since I can't blame my material circumstances, I can only conclude that I am this way because I always refuse to take personal responsibility. I know that changing myself so that I can be, at bare minimum, not a drain on society is going to take a lot of work, work that I always put off due to cowardice. Idealist as it is, I feel like I have some innate metaphysical trait that makes me this way, and the entirety of my failure to pick myself up is due to a moral failing on my part and nothing more.
How do I force myself to unfuck myself so that I can actually be useful for revolution instead of yet another useless first world lotus eater?
Since I have not yet seen the first step, but only the second step being advised in these comments, consider watching these 4 videos in this order. This is the real deal.
This will solve your life problems. Combine it with the combination of:
getting (half)naked sunbath for 30 minutes twice a week
exercising
proper sleep with unbroken 90-100 minute cycle phases (not waking up between a cycle, no erratic shitty alarms, get Gentle Wakeup alarm app on Android for $5)
no nocturnal peeing (do not overload with water before sleeping, pee before you sleep)
and this is the ultimate formula to a healthy, active and long lasting life.
Add a 10-15 minute power nap during midday/early evening/after office or school (use it as supercharger like you would coffee) and you have a good life foundation.