Fatty liver disease is so fuckint stupid

i'm in a similar boat, got diagnosed with fatty liver a few months back after being a functional alcoholic for years. my blood pressure was also through the roof at the time which prompted the doc to run a bunch of blood tests, both of the liver enzyme tests were "markedly elevated" but thankfully all of the tests for actual liver functioning were well within normal range. i abstained completely for 6 weeks and they both went way down again to near normal and my BP went back to normal as well AND i lost 8 pounds. then she told me i just need to lose weight and eat healthier, in addition to watching my booze intake. i also got hella bills for all the blood tests/ultrasound they ran that makes me not want to go back for a bunch of follow-up appts to check my progress like she was pushing for lol

i've started exercising regularly since the new year but i haven't been great about the alcohol, i fell off the wagon again shortly after that last appointment. i wanted to go totally sober again for the new year but i went through a 12-pack of seltzers this weekend after a very stressful week. on the positive side, i've really pinpointed what my triggers/reasons for drinking are (mostly anxiety spiraling due to... gestures around vaguely everything about the world and the fact that i don't feel like i have a future) and for the most part i didn't like how the booze made me feel this weekend. its just not worth it when it fucks with my body so hard. anyway if i keep rambling i'd have to make this its own post but i needed to get this shit off my chest. main takeaway: thank god we don't have cirrhosis