TIFU (22F) by accidentally sending my roommate (22M) hentai

This happened just yesterday. I opened messages to text my FWB since he was coming over after work, that’s when I see a link to nhentai in a conversation with my roommate. It doesn’t show who sent it from the selection screen, so I open it up confused as to why he would send that only to discover that it actually came from me.

I kind of freaked out because I don’t know what sent, it could’ve even been from one I didn’t even read and there’s a lot of really weird shit on this website. I open it up, it’s from one I read, and I’m slightly relieved as it’s not horrible but it is little weird. I think it sent when I put the phone down onto my stomach while I was getting busy. Source if curious, again not the worst thing, just yuri w/ foot stuff but I imagine most people would see this as pretty weird tbh.

My roommate’s a trans guy, including that bc although still embarrassing, generally guys wouldn’t take something like this as a girl creeping on them, but my roommate does actually have a lot of trauma around people fetishizing him and being sexually gross towards him for being trans. Despite that, I calmed myself down and thought that I was just catastrophizing. We aren’t all that close, but we’re on friendly terms as far as roommates go. I was still super embarrassed, but my only anxiety at that point really was them laughing at me for looking at foot stuff. Then I get this an hour later:

Holy shit, I’m completely freaked out. They think I’m a total creep, I’m texting my FWB about it and I’m just freaked out in general. I wasn’t crying or anything, but I genuinely was completely panicked and I just wanted to curl up in a ball and die of embarrassment. The times I feel the worst are when I try to comfort myself thinking the consequences of something aren’t going to be as bad as I think it’s going to be and then it actually end up being magnitudes worse than what I was anxious about.

I sent back a response, but they got back to me an hour after that. The entire time I was completely convinced they were freaked out by me tbh. I’m just glad it didn’t send to my boss, I genuinely wouldn’t of known what to do in that scenario.