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My week was very not good, sadly. I had to take my grandpa to the ER on Friday, and then I got broken up with Friday evening. Had a ten hour video shoot Saturday, just been pretty overwhelmed with work and home life in general. Things will work out ok, but this week has been a lot lol
Cold and lonely. Ran out of my main anti-hypertensive+anti-anxiety med, now there's nothing keeping my blood pressure high (as opposed to extremely high) unless I can smoke enough weed to do that. I don't really like it enough to try very hard 🤷 Had some kinda emotional crash thing last night, figured out I'm afraid to exist. Especially without an easy way out it feels like a terrifying commitment I'm not ready for. Sounds odd I guess but I don't pretend to be okay 🤷
Also, Minnesota's medicaid stuff is ass-garbage. Just gimme a website where I can poke the buttons and get everything done instantly. Oklahoma managed it. Somehow here it takes months and a bunch of bullshit snail mail and phone calls and I still don't have it fully set up (prescription coverage fuckingplease?!?) Grrrr!
Did I mention "cold and lonely?" Dunno if I'm even capable of feeling close to anycritter any more but bleeeh it hurts to not have anycritter I feel like I can yap at.
I have finally found shoes (boots) that fit my giant clown-feet!! Ones that aren't $200+ and made of cardboard, and are actually waterproof!! That's a great feeling
Other than that, imposter syndrome hit hard last week, and I really started learning things I needed to learn like 6+ months ago to do my job. It's also VERY hot in Ohio; I don't do hot weather well, and it's hard to think when sweaty.