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  • Hopefully your family gets well soon, it really blows when you're the only healthy in a household.

    So far so good, I'm finishing a photo project I started last week and the band that commissioned me is so far happy as hell with the images they're getting. They're even going to be giving me a shirt and a copy of their album when it releases.

    I can't share the images until they get the ones they're happy with but I'll definitely share those over on my PixelFed when I'm done with them.

    I've also got it down to just Lightroom holding me on Windows, I'm planning to learn some of the open source alternatives once I'm done with this project as not only has Windows over stayed it's welcome so has the Adobe suite. My plan is to leave Windows (ideally) before the end of March.

  • My week was pretty good, thank you for asking! On Monday, I went to group therapy for the first time. I liked it, but let's see how things progress. Watched the new Bridget Jones film in the evening. Wednesday, I went to our local modern art museum with my fiancée. I watched the new White Lotus and the new Paddington. Thursday, breakfast at the café I work at, later studying. Five-hour, homemade chicken soup made by my dearest for dinner. On Friday, my fiancée and I went for a visit to the local government, in order to submit all the necessary paperwork for our upcoming civil partnership (marriage lite). We got a date: July 19th! Friends came over in the evening to watch Irma Vep (1996).

    First post on here! Thank you for having me :)

    • First post on here! Thank you for having me :)

      welcome. Hope your week has started off well.

  • For a bit I thought my new prescription of lexapro was going to carry me through this year but the week of feeling joyful has leveled out and I am just as grumpy and annoyed as before. Just less sad. I want the joy part, though.

    • Been on Lexapro a while myself, and one of the most interesting effects about it for me is instead of being exceptionally depressed, I now get angry, which comes with the bonus addition of ✨energy ✨. It’s not joy, but it’s much more useful than depression! If I can get myself to direct the energy to exercise or angrily harping on a task I get to trade it for a little accomplishment and positive feelings. I just got done playing Ragnarok for a half hour after falling off the exercise wagon and it definitely put me in a better mood.

      • Lol ugh. My baseline was grumpy and extremely sad 80% of my week. They started me in Lexapro last November... week of election. Terrible idea. I wasn't sure if I was experiencing pill side effects or dealing with the election results. After two months it was clear it wasn't helping so we upped my dosage right in time for the fires that burnt my city down. I didn't think it was going to help at all but by mid January I was starting to experience little moments of joy. Initially, those bursts scared me. I was like what even is this emotion? My doctor was like, its normal as you adjust. It only lasted about two weeks. Now I am emotionally leveled out but back to the baseline of grump, but at least I'm not disabling levels sad. 😅

  • I have deleted every single social media account I had with the sole exception of Reddit (and Beehaw of course) in the past few years as part of my deciding-to-be-better clean-up act.

    Even after blocking and removing a metric fuck ton of toxic subs I always still feel worse than when I start casually browsing it. Something about confidently incorrect people, trolls, assholes, bots and AI slop get under my skin no matter how much I try to ignore them.

    So I'm going to reduce my Reddit activity even further.

    The world is probably always on fire right now and life is always hard. But I empathize with all of you that haven't had things go your way this week, and I celebrate all your little small wins and victories.

    • Even after blocking and removing a metric fuck ton of toxic subs I always still feel worse than when I start casually browsing it. Something about confidently incorrect people, trolls, assholes, bots and AI slop get under my skin no matter how much I try to ignore them.

      All social media, including Reddit and Bluesky, is racing towards mass dehumanization and promoting anti-humanism as fast as possible. It's out of control in 2025.

      “Technopoly is a state of culture. It is also a state of mind. It consists in the deification of technology, which means that the culture seeks its authorization in technology, finds its satisfactions in technology, and takes its orders from technology.” ― Neil Postman, Technopoly: The Surrender of Culture to Technology, 1992

  • Little high, little low. I'm adjusting to online discussions after not being part of them for quite a while. Had some fun conversations with my partner and I am writing again, which is great. Job hunting is such a drag though. Simply inhuman.

  • Individual acts of kindness are keeping me going through the late Weimar. I'm writing this from the garage of a friend who offered to let me stay with him while we deal with "not going to get above freezing for a few days."

  • It's nice to be back (even if I had to make a new account), but I think I still need to take a break from online communication.

    Have had too many toxic encounters lately, so probably need to chill.

    At least I'm not back on fucking reddit anymore. The only reason I made another account there about a year ago was for NSFW stuff (but even those subs still haven't totally recovered from the API event), yet I still ended up being an idiot and going into /r/popular out of boredom. Lack of third party filtering made it Hell. Muting subs isn't enough when you're trying to avoid entire topics.

    Don't really know why I deleted my old account here. I think I was just going through some shit and deleted all my accounts and related apps.

    The weird thing about federation is that I can see my old posts and comments on my old account here from Fedia (joined there as well because I was curious about mbin), but they've disappeared in this instance. To be honest, that's something I really don't like. If someone wants to delete their stuff en masse (account, all posts and comments, etc.), it's still cached on another instance unless they manually delete every post/comment one by one. Not exactly the best for privacy.

    Anyway, whatever. This was an unnecessarily long comment, apologies. Life's weird. I'm tired. Nothing new, I guess.

  • Hope y'all feel better soon!

    Had a lovely anxiety spell take over me the past couple of days, but I'm working on solving the issues that are causing said anxieties, bit by bit. At least the weekend will start, though my internship now seeps into my weekends... Don't look forward to Saturdays as much as I used to. But Sunday, I'll be hanging out with a friend. And then I'll be hanging out with someone I really like. ⌯’▾’⌯ Trying to be optimistic and get work done so that the anxiety lessens.

  • I took a two week break from social media because I wasn't engaging with the political crisis situation in a responsible way. Now I'm just going to try to engage in more productive and meaningful discussion.

  • Terrible, horrific, the society all around me is racing as fast as it can into unreality at the hands of Kremlin information warfare. So many have lost their hearts and minds to 5,000 patterns of anti-truth anti-real anti-goodness. Sickening every hour of every day how people are behaving in my community.

    Константин Рыков
    November 14, 2016

    Часть вторая.

    В чем заключалась наша идея с Дональдом Трампом? За четыре года и два дня.. необходимо было пробраться ко всем в мозг и захватить все возможные средства массового восприятия действительности. Обеспечить победу Дональда на выборах президента США. После чего создать политический союз между Соединенными Штатами, Францией, Россией (и ещё рядом других государств) и установить новый мировой порядок.

    Четыре года и два дня - это с одной стороны очень большой срок, а с другой очень маленький. Наша идея была безумна, но реализуема. Для того, чтобы в этом во всем разобраться для начала нужно было "оцифровать" все возможные виды современного человека. Дональд решил пригласить для этой задачи - специальный научный отдел "Кембриджского университета".

    Британские учёные из Cambridge Analytica предложили сделать из 5 тысяч существующих человеческих психотипов - "идеальный образ" возможного сторонника Трампа. Затем.. положить этот образ обратно на всё психотипы и таким образом подобрать универсальный ключик к любому и каждому.

    Разработка в итоге обошлась Дональду Фредовичу в 5 миллионов долларов. Но! Он получил в свои руки - секретное супер-оружие. Кто занимался таргетированной рекламой.. поймёт, что это значит. Помните, сколько всего денег потратили фонды Клинтон и "их сторонники" на кампанию по всему миру? В 5 раз больше, чем Трамп.

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