ADHD gaming

whenever i find a game that i actually want to keep playing i give a quick prayer to the gods, thanking them for their mercy
go figure that game was The Long Dark this time, only thing more violently autistic than a realistic canadian survival game would be a railway planning ga- sigh

This is me, except for spending an hour getting the thing running properly and graphics settings tweaked properly just to play 10 minutes and never touch it again. Sometimes I wonder if I actually just enjoy configuring games.

I'm interested in playing. I am just so fucking exhausted from all my jobs and the loading screen is where I go through all the stages of grief until I accept i am to tired to do the one thing that brings me joy in life.
Then I go to bed and my daily torture session begin anew.

I feel like this also works for depression. I will go through half my library doing this, just to turn it off because there's no desire for anything.
- If I'm lucky I can find something new to hyperfixate on to get me out of a rut. Old stuff doesn't do it for me. Discovered my favorite genre this way actually.
  
  Discovered your favorite genre, for now
- That's exactly me, I hate depression cuz I want to play and enjoy games but can't get myself to do it because there's just emptiness.

At my age, I'll pick a game that doesn't require several hours of unfun stuff to get to the fun stuff (endless tutorials, churning, unfun mechanics, git-gud, etc..)
If I want to dedicate lots of times to learn something, I'll pick any of the thousands of half-done projects and abandoned hobbies spread around my home.

Brain hack: Go stare at a wall for 5-10 minutes and try again, repeat until the game/activity seems fun. Your brain will start to crave any stimulation when faced with unbearable boredom.
Note: This may cause emotions you were suppressing to surface in the absence of stimulation, which will likely be uncomfortable, but also might be the reason you were struggling to enjoy things in the first place.
- Why not just take a walk outside instead of bending over backwards to enjoy computer?
  
  Its 4am and its dark out there

I like to spend all day at work thinking about how much fun I'm going to have playing a certain game when I get home.
Then, when I finally make it home and sit down in front of my computer, I'll "get to it in a minute" for the next 3 to 4 hours until suddenly it's time to eat and go to bed. Repeat 5 days a week.

I usually load up Steam with the intention of clearing some of my backlog but then just end up doing another run of Binding of Isaac or Noita

Load game… Turns out there are updates, connect to the internet, wait for it to update, then get to loading screen and want to play something else.

I go through that but I stay in the menu tweaking the settings until it's perfect. Then I start the game mess with the settings again only to lose interest in actually playing it.
- I’ve done that a lot with mods.. get the mods I want set up and then realize I don’t actually want to play..

I do this thing, where I'll play a game for 2-5 minutes and then I'll stop again.
You can bet your ass that I only play games that load and close almost instantly. Well, and basically only games that I'm already familiar with.

Full steam ahead until I beat the game. See I have just 3 achievements to earn until I have 100% completion.
They're all "collect/perform action 1 billion times" things.
Never play again.
Have 100% in Prepare to Die Edition of Dark Souls; have not done the ones where you need to collect every spell and ring in the Remaster.

I mostly play on the Xbox, not very often. so when I do, it's the update game. I play update for a few minutes, get bored then go do something else. By the time I finish there's no more time to play and I forget until a couple months when I only get to play update again.
- Update game
  "Oh hey, the console doesn't need to update this time! And this 5-year old game is the one I just updated last month, and there hasn't been any news or anything about the game."
  needs to update
  "Wow, these minor bug fixes are (probably) amazing. Especially when it's 300MB!"