2w ago

How are you all doing? - Weekly thread #12

Thank you @andros_rex@lemmy.world for [unintentionally] reminding me to make the weekly thread lol

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Slowly descending deeper into despair. My life's only getting worse the world's getting worse. I have nothing and can't find anything worth living for or anything to even reasonably distract from this pain... So basically nothing new.
- mood. u2? dang.
I had an amazing day yesterday, and now I’m sobbing because I failed to save a baby bird.
- You at least tried, be proud of that.
- it would've died without you, you just showed it love before it passed ❤️
Doing OK. Been getting my steps in every day and it's helping my mental health, plus the pup is very happy about all the walks.
I read the book Recursion and now I'm sad I don't have the ability to go back in time 🫠
- What is that book about?
  
  Spoiler Free: Time Travel
  
  Very interesting book. I am usually not a book reader, but this had no adaptations so I was forced to read it to enjoy the story.
  I don't exactly like the characters too much, the characters are "meh" to me, I just like the premise and the unique time travel rules.
Things are going a bit better. I got my entire house clean this morning and I feel some of the joy and color coming back into my life, as well as the motivation to set goals again.
I always sleep really strangely coming out of a depressive episode. It's like I am dead asleep all night, need more sleep than normal, and my dreams are super intense and strange. When I wake up, it's like pulling my consciousness out of the void. It feels like my brain is trying to heal itself.
I don't know. Things are going "better", but I'm kinda irritable for some reason. Like the "better" isn't coming fast enough.
I filled out a PHQ-9 on my phone a little too honestly yesterday and got a call early this morning from a concerned nurse working in my psychiatrist's office.
Edit: No involuntary grippy sock vacation just yet but I'll keep you guys posted.
Depressed, stressed, and irrationally angry. What's new?

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