What language do you wish you could speak (and/or read)?
I wish I could speak Finnish. But, actually, there are tons of languages I wish I could speak. All of them, really, but Finnish is the first one I thought of just now.
I'm in the US and English is my my primary language. I studied Russian but have forgotten a lot of it. I know a few words of German and French, but very few.
Edited to add: Please tell me what your primary language is. It would also be interesting to know what other languages you speak, if any, and where you currently live.
I also had this problem. Eventually I realized there isn't a time limit and if it takes me 10 years to become fluent, I'll still be fluent at the end.
Using that logic, I stopped trying to cram lessons like I'm studying for finals again and just do like 10 minutes a day. And if I miss a day or two then thats fine.
Maurugoto has free Japanese online self study courses for beginners. It has helped me commit to actually learning Japanese and I'm currently somewhere in between N4 and N5.