Lost_Soul @ Lost_Soul @lemmy.world Posts 5Comments 23Joined 4 wk. ago
Thanks for the encouragement. I tried drugs before such as those SSRI's but all they did is make me feel even more uncomfortable and mess with my brain chemistry.
For some people this might help to numb their feelings or something but it definitely didn't help for my major depression. I don't think depression is caused by a lack of specific neurotransmitters. It's a core part of my identity and you had to change my personality to get rid of the depression and unfortunately we don't have meds for that..
I told them literally every little detail about my situation. I also tried medication but it didn't help.
I think a core problem is that all they do is talk and further make you identify with these unhealthy thoughts instead of confidently and actively guiding you towards a healthy life and giving you the understanding that you need.
The second part of your comment literally hits the nail on its head and is so true! It feels impossible to escape this.
Damn you're so lucky to have something to go to and especially lucky for having friends and people who care about you. I wish I had that right now. I literally don't see anyone and spent 24 hours inside one single room for 2 years. The fact that I have no one who cares about me just deeply discourages me.
And the fact that I'm living with my parents again deeply discourages me further to do anything but I can't get out here because of the strong burden that makes me incapable of living independently.
I lost the hope that eventually something will improve since I had that for years and nothing changed. I already know that I will still be stuck in this room for the next 5 years unless I'm going insane or die til before that. What a waste of valuable life time😮💨