PeeNutButtHer [she/her] @ PeeNutButtHer @hexbear.net

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Some people seem so fucking happy to be trans and others seem miserable, I’m in the miserable camp but I want to be happy. Happy trans people, what’s your secret?? I want in, let me in

I’ve been on e for almost 3 years and my ass is only okay, 7.125/10 I’d say

I may be forever flat chested but there is always the hope that I can get a fat ass

Not like I will ever exercise to do so, but I can pretend and imagine

I barely have the mental energy to keep myself alive, I couldn't care for another creature

plus I'm flat broke and couldn't afford and the vet visits, shots, spay/neutering, food, etc...

So? That doesn't even come close to making up for all of the horrible shit done in the name of Christianity

It doesn't really get that many posts, like only a couple per month

There was a general megathread posted there two weeks ago though

I've been on antidepressants, including SSRIs, before and they just never really seemed to do anything for me, the only thing they did do was give me horrible withdraw symptoms after I stopped taking them

You know that pins-and-needles feeling when a limb is asleep? When I got off lexapro I would get that feeling all over my body for about 2-3 seconds every like 15 seconds, it was awful

Honestly it's kind of surprising to me that we have a Christianity comm on this site. Like it's a irredeemable religion full of so much heinous shit anyone who calls themself a leftist should be opposed to it

Yeah, that was what was taught in my home school ""history"" class

My parents still believe in the shit

The nonsense of that is a big part of what drove me to becoming an atheist. That and being trans and bi, the bible is very clear about what it thinks should happen to LGBTQ people and it frustrates me so much when people try to pretend that Christianity isn't inherently bigoted and homophobic

My brains broken from years of isolation as a child so I just really hate going out in public and seeing people. I've done volunteer work for a local festival, I've done canvasing for a vegan group, shit like that doesn't help. Having to deal with people all day just makes me want to peel my skin off

All the things that make me miserable are pretty much out of my control

I need money and no one will fucking hire me. I even applied and got an interview for a position cleaning up literal shit at a hospital and they still didn't hire me. They won't even let me clean up doo doo feces to make a living

Can't get SRS without money, can't get FFS without money, can't get out of my shitty ass apartment where they're always cutting the water off without money, this shit sucks

I never manage to stick to routines, if I have one slip up I spiral and it all goes down the drain. I was doing pretty good routine-wise for some of March but all it took was one bad day and all the progress was washed away

Yes, and I've never really fully recovered from it. Eventually I got to go to real school but the damage was done and I didn't really know or understand how to interact with people so I talked to almost no one and kept to myself

I don't have really any hobbies and whenever I try to get into something I lose interest very quickly. I just can't get invested in anything because I have no passion for anything

with 20 of your friends

If you counted up everyone that has been my friend or even just an acquaintance in life I don't think it would hit 20