Sorry I haven't commented on one of these in a while. Life's been a bit of a mess. I don't know how to feel anymore. Stressed? Terrified? Anxious? Does any of this actually matter?

Have to make a 9 hour drive up north to Georgia for an appointment early October, didn't expect to have to do that. Apparently starting new care was recently banned here, so that's...it sucks. Just trying to keep my sanity till then at this point.

Turns out some family members I have to see regularly are very transphobic, so... yeah. That's been oh so fantastic for my mental health too.

Venting aside (I'm sorry) the best news is definitely getting a new car. Traded in my aging SUV for a much newer Subaru, and absolutely love it. Finally something that wasn't a hand-me-down, that's mine and my own. Also managed turned that now required drive to Georgia into timing perfectly with a camping trip with some friends up there, so that's something worth looking forwards to.

Sorry if any of this was saying too much. I've been stressed way out.

Well, in that case, I'd like better odds. What am I supposed to do with a million dollars?

I guess I'd press it anyways. 1% is better than nothing.

There's a 50/50 chance I just got myself fired for standing up for myself at work, I'll find out on Tuesday when I go back in, I guess; it really doesn't matter to me anymore, I wasn't happy there, just stressed. If I'm not, then that's cool.

This is definitely the most euphoric I've felt in years, I think I'm going to celebrate with a trip to the beach and maybe look for some spots to skate. I think I'll start self advocating for myself more, too. I like this feeling.

Had a mental breakdown over the weekend. Ended up spending a day on self care, and I think I'm going to start working towards making some changes in my life, cause this isn't working for me.

And now I've just gone and impulsively bought some of those on the internet.

Oooh this means I don't have to commit to a long sleeve shirt in the summer or maybe as heavy a coat in the winter! Thanks internet stranger! 😊

I think that's from mastodon users, and how mastodon works when replying. I haven't personally used mastodon though, so someone please correct me if I'm wrong.

If it's important, they'll leave a message.

Thank you for reminding me to purge boxes again; It's probably time._ I will admit I do like to keep the ones with fancy artwork_.

The little plastic trays things come in (fans especially) though, those are worth their weight in gold. I always keep them for sorting things like twist ties, small wires, and tiny extra screws, etc in drawers.

Have we met before, Mr. Tongue?

I don't know a lot about biology or things like that, and this is probably a bit of a mess of a thought, but a lab grown brain in a jar could have some really interesting implications if given, say, a computer, as it's sensory inputs and ways of interacting with the world.

Would it know what it was? How might it socialize? What would it do on the internet? Would it understand the difference between real human controlled characters and AI characters in a video game? How effective might it be at learning our languages, and communicating with us in them? What might be the most effective way/medium for it to learn a language?

I think it would be really interesting to study, and I don't imagine there would be many ethical issues?