The first time I heard the phrase “do I want to be with her or do I want to be her” was a major holy shit moment for me. It made me realize that my relationship with the concept of “attraction” was way more complicated than I thought. At that moment, I had a realization that what I thought was attraction to women is actually a mix of both attraction and envy, and the reason I had always denied my attraction to men is that the idea of being in a mlm relationship made me unbearably dysphoric
I’ve used endeavour as my daily driver for the last year, it’s been great for me. Highly recommend regular backups though, as it’s a bleeding edge rolling release distro, so more likely to break unexpectedly than ubuntu
I came out almost immediately for a couple reasons:
my mental health was total garbage and boymoding was literally unbearable
I knew that most of my friends and family were pretty accepting and open minded
I lived in a very diverse and accepting city at the time
this was during the height of Covid restrictions so nobody was going out anyway
Basically the discomfort of hiding my true self overrode the fear of being openly and visibly trans lol
Fortunately everyone I came out to was really positive about it. I was prepared to cut out a few of my extended family members if it came to that, but thankfully I didn’t need to
The only thing I wish could have gone differently is that I stayed in the closet at work. I had some problematic coworkers so I didn’t feel safe being openly trans there. Unsurprisingly I didn’t last long at that job lol
I should revisit this game, I remember really enjoying it when I played through years ago