Screaming into the void (CW: Suicide)
Screaming into the void (CW: Suicide)
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Do you need help with DIY or anything? It seems you're too afraid to start cause of all the bureaucracy
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I went to a doctor in 2015 and had a horrible anxiety attack when I saw the list of expected effects/side effects. DIY is too scary for me. I wish I could take that experience enough to go into full-on denial. I need a robust support system if I were able to transition and it just doesnt exist or im too unlikeable for people to continue supporting me for very long. Im honestly pretty incompetent at day-to-day life besides transition, I think I have really bad undiagnosed autism/possible adhd. I used to be able to just write it off as an impossibility due to my IBS but the news just has to be about trans stuff all the time.
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DIY is usually made with pharma stuff made in China that all the pharma companies get their stuff from. Most DIY providers (e.g. Astrovials) are also tested regularly by third parties. Of course there is more risk but yeah I understand, anxiety can be a beast
Honestly you sound a lot like a girl I know that eventually started E many years ago, lot of similar issues and concerns. She ended up going with it though because the mental benefit outweighed the other stuff. Hope you do what works best for you, but as everyone's mom I must remind you that suicide isn't whats best for you and a path that leads you towards that isn't the way to go
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It seems like every trans person has to decide between transition or suicide and Ive picked the latter unfortunately. I just hate how much of a coward I am.
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If you need direct assistance with housing or something please let me know we can discuss
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