Screaming into the void (CW: Suicide)
Screaming into the void (CW: Suicide)
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Hey there, I just wanted to share a resource with you that I found a while back called Wildflower Alliance. They are a super radical mental health/peer support organization that's anticarceral and they believe in being able to talk openly about SI without worrying about it becoming an intervention episode. They have online meetings and a discord as well with a channel specific to being able to talk about this stuff freely, if you ever just want to vent to people who get it. They have warmlines you can call but the discord is just for anyone
Sorry I know you aren't asking for help, I experience SI myself and I fucking wish I had people who I could talk to who wouldn't get freaked out. I'm sorry this world makes it so fucking difficult to want to live
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I appreciate the resource. I just wish there were enough drugs to make me forget being trans. Im still the scared teenager who would freak out trying to google transgender in the late 00s and now the trauma I repress is all around me. Im one of the few people it would be ethical to have reparative therapy for. Id probably still be suicidal as a cis person because im suicidal for a lot of reasons.
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Really cool resource I'm gonna add it to our resource thread
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That's an incredibly inappropriate thing to say blight
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I dont have access to firearms or ghouls and the propaganda machine works so well that it would just hurt us if I did anything.
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Do you need help with DIY or anything? It seems you're too afraid to start cause of all the bureaucracy
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I went to a doctor in 2015 and had a horrible anxiety attack when I saw the list of expected effects/side effects. DIY is too scary for me. I wish I could take that experience enough to go into full-on denial. I need a robust support system if I were able to transition and it just doesnt exist or im too unlikeable for people to continue supporting me for very long. Im honestly pretty incompetent at day-to-day life besides transition, I think I have really bad undiagnosed autism/possible adhd. I used to be able to just write it off as an impossibility due to my IBS but the news just has to be about trans stuff all the time.
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DIY is usually made with pharma stuff made in China that all the pharma companies get their stuff from. Most DIY providers (e.g. Astrovials) are also tested regularly by third parties. Of course there is more risk but yeah I understand, anxiety can be a beast
Honestly you sound a lot like a girl I know that eventually started E many years ago, lot of similar issues and concerns. She ended up going with it though because the mental benefit outweighed the other stuff. Hope you do what works best for you, but as everyone's mom I must remind you that suicide isn't whats best for you and a path that leads you towards that isn't the way to go
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