It's really fucking hard. I seriously need to get help, but where would I even look? Last time I opened up to a psychologist caused some of the worst self-loathing I ever experienced, and got me close to ending it all. All I can do is to keep hiding.
When I opened up to my doctor recently about other things related to my mental health I was on the verge of tears and literaly cried in my car before I left (They just wouldn't fall in their office)
The best advice I can offer is to keep trying and to keep opening up
Thing do get better if you keep trying, it might suck for awhile but it will get better
I've noticed that happens sometimes when a comment gets removed by mods, though it usually displays properly in a browser.
I try to be a supportive positive person online, especially to those who seem to be having a hard time. So I was really confused by the reply when I checked out my comment from earlier. And also that the comment reply didn't hit my inbox.
After double checking in my browser rather than my app, yeah the other comment the poster left was supposed to be attached to someone else's reply that has been (thankfully) removed.