the soviet union and china weren't communist. I also don't like scary angry communists like various independence movements around the world, they look like the people they call "terrorists" on the news. when I say I'm a communist I mean I want to have a nice real communist country like Sweden, where they have a semi-functional healthcare system and communist parties get 0.5% of the vote and the party that wants to make being a foreigner illegal gets 57.5%
"Totalitarian" is arguably the most meaningless word, ever. Also, imagine being haunted by the specter of a country that hasn't existed since probably before you were born. Oh no! The big bad soviets are going to rise from the grave and steeeeeal yooooour graaaaaaain!
All political economies are totalitarian, save those in a state of upheaval. The fact they dont see capitalism as all encompassing and forcing a person to conform to it every second of the day is incredible.