A lot of what you describe sounds like stuff that most people in the world experience. I know that doesn't solve any of your problems, but it's good to know you're not alone in what you're going through.
In regards to your big question at the last sentence, I would suggest shrooms. They help tremendously with exactly that type of issue.
EDIT: Also get a new therapist. Your current one sounds really bad.
I'm just curious, could you expand on what the rules are pertaining to this subject here? This is the first I've heard of it, since the Rules on the sidebar don't mention it.