Ive wrestled with spirituality for a while now, and and don't know what to do?

I'm not sure if this is the right community to post in (maybe y'all can comment more appropriate ones if that's the case) but basically, I'm not sure what I believe in spiritually. While I believe in an afterlife and that my loved ones who are no longer here are there I'm uncertain If I believe in god, reincarnation, chakras, etc. I'm uncertain which religion to try to validate this belief that my loved ones are in a better place, but I know that I want life/spiritual guidance, community, and inclusion (both as a Queer person and a general outsider.) I just need some help figuring this part of myself out, is there anyone I can talk to about this? What should I do?