What's something you've been called in life that isn't generally something bad, but made you feel awful
What's something you've been called in life that isn't generally something bad, but made you feel awful
For me, growing up, I was around people who saw games as useless and a waste of time, but I loved them
I've always been into computers and tech and was called techy and a gamer and each time, it was said with a sort of disgust from the person saying it.
It made me feel like I shouldn't be friends with the few people like me, and I spent a lot of my childhood staying away from people, and making sure that people didn't learn that I played games
Even now, I get slightly uncomfortable being called a gamer or techy or any synonym even though people don't really think that anymore around here.
Anyone else have something similar?
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Basically any and all compliments make me feel like shit, it's not a good quality of mine but its the truth
Before I transitioned being called handsome hurt, I didn't want that. Since I transitioned I have been called beautiful and sexy. I still feel bad, I don't believe them. It's odd because.. I can kinda see what they mean? Like I personally like how I look sooo much better now it's insane, but from other people it feels like a lie. Or else it makes me feel like I'm just an object to them, like an exotic sex thing, not a person.
I work as a gpu/graphics programmer, and people say I'm smart and talented. I never believe it, ever. When I was young I did not do well in school, like special ed classes. That early life experience is still internalized. It's why I push myself really hard at the detriment of my own health. I truly believe I am not a smart person despite recognizing why people think I am.
Last year I was diagnosed autistic with Persistent Demand Avoidance sub type. I have read online that PDA people often struggle with compliments. Its super fucked tbh, I can never feel good about any accomplishment, nothing is enough, and I feel unlovable.
Do you know any one else that has gone through all you have and ended up where you are?