I've been extremely depressed lately. Still drinking all the time. Finding it hard to believe I have actual friends and not just people that tolerate me.
If you can stop the drinking that should help. Alcohol depresses the system. It’s a horrible downward cycle and took me years to get out of myself. Reading This Naked Mind was a game changer for me. Could it also be you are having a downward swing? Can your doctor adjust your meds to help?