Lemmy users who feel the heaviness of depression, what issue in your life weighs you down the most?
Lemmy users who feel the heaviness of depression, what issue in your life weighs you down the most?
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The fact that no matter how much I improve, no matter how much I "work on myself", that people will always assert that I'm not "good enough" based on their own inherent narcissism. People will always be trying to bury a hatchet into my neck simply because something about me proves their very identity wrong.
Some people. People worth staying away from, imho.
All people - which is exactly what there's no "away". That inherent narcissism is what makes people human, and the fact that repeated near-death experiences traumatized it out of me is exactly why people refuse to accept my humanity.
My best friend used to have a saying, "we can only try our best, no more and no less". This is one of the ones I live by. If this describes you, I for one can't see myself judging you.
Everyone else would jump at the chance to judge me - and has so far. They see me as only a slave to serve their needs; any moment I am failing to do so makes me worthy of death in their eyes.
I never understood that either. I am judged a lot but then I see someone who others consider judgeworthy and I don't think I've ever not asked "why am I to judge this person again". By definition, I cannot blame those who try their best.
They're all narcissists. Every human being who has not been traumatized is a narcissist; only trauma can drive out narcissism. Trauma rubs people's faces into their own mortality; only knowing their own mortality can humble them enough to get over themselves.
Is that to say innocence doesn't exist?