So i still have depression and im constantly bored, i feel like a loser who cant do anything right. I want to let my creativeness out, make something i can share with the world or family, but im probably dreaming too big. I cant stand being depressed and bored, it stinks, everyone tells me to work out but i lack the motivation to do so.
i usually just watch youtube all day while complaining to family members that have no idea what to do about me.
I came here to also suggest birdwatching! You don't need to go very far, just sit out on the porch and listen/watch the birds go by. Then, start googling for the local bird types to see if you can start recognizing their species by the way they look or sound. Expand to local plants nearby or other animals you may notice.
It's free, easy, educational, and it gets you outside for a little bit which might help you get out of your depression cloud, even if it's just for a little while.
Something about being in nature and around animals seems to put any depressing inner monologue into perspective. And baby steps is a great recommendation too.