I don't mean actively trying to commit suicide or being careless and stupid, you know, just feeling like if I woke up tomorrow and said to me, "Oh hey, like, you died last night" I wouldn't care.
Is this something serious? Should I seek help or consulting?
I'm nihilistic so keep that bias in mind with the rest of this:
Life is a beautiful nightmare. Death is inevitable and worrying about it does nothing positive for you. Enjoy the peace of mind that comes with accepting death before it comes 👍