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Is this called "Masking"?
I recently heard about "masking" and thought it was something everyone did.
I just recently started recognizing how autism has affected my behaviors and life in general. This is masking.
It is indeed called masking
And it is indeed something everyone does to varying degrees.
While true, I feel like pointing that fact out only does one thing, diminishes the fact that itās a problem for those with a disability.
I first heard that term here on Lemmy with regards to ADHD and man it's so weird that it never occurred to me that that was likely what I was doing and why almost every second of my existence feels like I'm trying to avoid getting caught for something. I think it's probably so ingrained now that the 'mask' is grafted on to me and I'll never be able to stop masking, it's just second nature, but it kind of feels a bit better to look at it as an explainable coping mechanism that I developed rather than living with the vague sense of being like an alien in disguise on a foreign planet. I also reckon that despite it being perhaps a shame that I've felt the need to mask, I don't think it's entirely irrational. It's undeniable that it's useful and helpful to be 'normal'.
I also reckon that despite it being perhaps a shame that Iāve felt the need to mask, I donāt think itās entirely irrational. Itās undeniable that itās useful and helpful to be ānormalā.
There's a large discussion here and the answer will be different for everyone. What does masking cost to you? What do you gain by masking? Can you choose to mask just a little bit for a large return, or is it something that is going to wear you off long-term? Are you overestimating how much of a stigma you'll suffer for not masking in a given place?
Most people mask at least a little bit, and they probably should. There are plenty of times when I want to reply to someone by retorting something cruel, and doing that would probably be expressing my true self, but would that be useful or well deserved? Then again, if maintaining eye contact costs me a lot of effort, doing it 10+ hours a day is going to be brutal. My conclusion is masking the bare minimum with close family and friends, and coworkers I have to talk to daily when I'm not performing a social task that gives me responsibility over them (for example, if I'm reviewing their work). If it's a short exchange with someone I barely know when I'm not tired, or I'm talking with someone whose favor I need (such as negotiating a mortgage), I'm far more likely to put in more effort. As a general rule, the more time you have to spend with someone, the less you should mask. If you're neurodivergent and share plenty of time with some specific coworkers, getting them to understand that your natural way of expressing yourself is different to the majority of people should be required workplace accommodations.
For myself as I unpack and work with my masking Iāve found thereās a lot to be said about the intentionality of the process.
Iāve found a lot less stress and mental strain from conscious and deliberate crafting of masks than in previous times when masks developed ānaturallyā or without the knowledge of my ASD. Those times when I knew that friend groups couldnāt cross streams because I was an entirely different person around different people.
I guess a way to put it is rather than having a bunch of separate masks to select from and put on I try now to have layers to put over my actual self. Like different parts of a scene on tracing paper that make a different picture depending on how you stack them. But still all the same pieces and the same face underneath.
Fake it til ya make it.
To a certain extent yeah. Everyone "masks" in a sense that they may show different parts of themselves to different people, or act differently around different people. You save the weirdness to your friends and family and present a more "normal" image to strangers and acquaintances.
However, for neurodivergent people, masking is much more extensive and hides different things. Often these people will hide their autism, ADHD, etc. from everyone or most people. There is considerable effort to hide their symptoms.
Neurotypical people hide the fact they like mayo on pizza while Neurodivergent people hide the fact they struggle to understand facial expressions or social cues.
Yeah it's basically masking. It doesn't always look like this but it's basically noticing that your brain wants to do X but you've learned from experience that society prefers when you do Y instead of X. So you pay attention to anytime your brain thinks about doing X, catch yourself before you do it, and then do Y instead. It can be unpleasant sometimes because X may be something that you feel a compulsion to do, or that helps you regulate your emotions.
And itās exhausting having (or feeling like you have to) to process every thought:
- should I do/say this?
- will they find it appropriate?
- how should I do it?
- what should I do instead?
Or just doing/saying the thing without thinking bc, well, ADHDā¦. And then realizing, oh thatās right, I just met these people, probably shouldnāt say things like that, theyāll think Iām crazy/aggressive/controlling. Did everyoneās vibe just change? What do they think of what I just said? Can I recover?
Reminds me, writing work emails or messages is a nightmare, cuz Iāll go through the above process prospectively and keep revising until Iāve got a message that basically sounds like chat gpt wrote it. Maybe Iāll just have chat gpt reword my messages for me, and save a bunch of steps.
I was acting like a bloated insufferable entitled man-child. Itās called āmusking.ā