If the current status of the world is "SHIT", then any small improvement is stochastically more likely.
I think humanity wants to live. People want to have a world that they can leave to their children. People will passively give power to monsters until they see that they have a means not to. Marxism is the criticism of all that exists within society, and if all that exists within our societies is fucked, that means our competition is weak. Communism can win if we can properly organize.
Let us not forget the gains that were made by collective action, we fought for, that the system pretends was a kind gift from the Bourgeoisie. Such "gifts" were concessions in fear of socialism (or in your case a legacy of the USSR itself).
Yσɠƚԋσʂ, you are a great propagandist in pointing out the contradictions between human needs and what the capitalist structure provides. We appreciate the work you do, as it performs the function for the movement. However, I can imagine the psychological toll it might take on you though.
Human psychology suggests that major life changes require a lot of time to process the internalization we have while going through them. We have to unpack things and question our own assumptions and be honest with ourselves on things we thought we'd never have to be honest with ourselves about.
I think that most people becoming socialists are coming from the toxic ideology of liberalism. Liberalism is a mental cage, designed to keep people captive in the predominant mode, all while thinking they're actually free! When becoming a socialist, it's a real struggled to free oneself from the shackles of liberal thought. It's really, really tough. And it takes a lot of time, just like any change.
During a transition period from liberalism to socialism (technically, Marxism), people go through large periods of doubt and frustration and pessimism. But don't let that get you off track. It's natural and normal. You're just starting to see the world for what it is, rather than what the powerful want you to believe it is. And the world is confusing and wild and lots of ugly. So it's alarming.
Keep the course. Stay steady on. You'll get out of the murky waters eventually. Once you can use material dialectics to analyze news and current events and history and movies and ... then you'll start realizing that the world was always this way and there's no real sense in getting down about it. Live your life, do your part and push things a little further along.
None of the timings of things are up to us. It's only on us to be ready for when the moment's right. And to be humble enough to also be ready for that moment to be after we're gone. Regardless of the circumstances, a socialist's job is always the same: educate, agitate and organize.