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This is my first time replying to one of these threads, but I've been doing fantastic!!! I have been experiencing what I would consider real "gender euphoria" for the first time in a big way! (after 6 months HRT lmao) It might not sound like much to some, but I have reached a point that I am feeling more confident with the idea of "coming out" to more people IRL, including my mom who I plan on coming out to next time I see her. I already came out to one coworker I particularly trust, and I finally changed my name and pronouns on discord, so some ppl that I'm not out to yet will see it. And my 2-year-old daughter has taken it upon herself to start calling me "Mommy Daddy" most of the time which feels super great. So yeah! Good vibes all around!
edit to add that I got invited to be a nonbinary friend's "Them-maid" in their wedding, which is (1) my second time ever being invited to a wedding, (2) my first time ever being part of someone else's wedding, and (3) probably the first and only time I'll ever feel 100% comfortable wearing a dress in public.