The Jessica from 6-12 months ago? Well, she got high every day, and pursued validation through dangerous rendezvouses. I didn’t care if I was meeting a guy at his house, in the basement. All that mattered to me was being used and thrown away.
These days, I do not date at all. I have made peace with the fact that I likely will never meet a man who likes me for who I am, rather than the fetish that he chases.