I appreciate your kind words.

And you pretty much nailed it on both fronts.

I listened to some shrink talking on the radio probably over a decade ago. She mentioned that it wasn't abnormal for her patients to say they don't know what they enjoy.

I matured late and had kids young. My kids are adults now.

I don't have hobbies or interests. I've been busy working .

My boss pissed me off the other day. I could find an easier job. Maybe take a pay cut.

What else would I do though?

I don't have hobbies, I don't really want one. I don't have friends, and I never really wanted them. I do have family and people who love me don't worry.

I don't have friends, hangout spots, hobbies, TV shows I binged. I don't even know what I like. So I guess I work? I should probably find something. Not mineral collecting but maybe trains?

I mean yeah but that's a different kind of unfairness.

What I'm talking about is one person being hungry while another person is forced to eat food when they aren't. You're more talking about someone who doesn't deserve a multiple course meal.

Knowing I'm going to mostly throw this shit away and not enjoy it while there are other people who want it sucks.

This kind of thing always seems so unfair to me. They were writing a book and meeting new friends. Meanwhile I'm so damn tired and ready to rest. I'd give you're friend 10 or twenty years off my own life if it were an option.

I wouldn't hurt myself, I'm just saying another 30 or forty years seems so daunting..there's people who want those years and that's unfair.

Can confirm. Every now and then one my cashiers will call me over and be like "this old woman handed a signed piece of paper instead of money?"

It's also funny to show them the ol' shotgun credit card imprinter "you put the card there and the paper here kachunk and in a few weeks wed find out if they actually had the money at all!"

How the hell did that system work for soo long lol

For fifty bucks I'll tell you exactly how to make money scamming people.

"does that actually work"

"No it never does... But it might work for us"

-Arrested development

It was closed lol rescheduled for the 31st. I think I'm going to go dressed up as a judge.

They have a lovely bike path or you could take the trolley

Precisely. He considered the doctor to be his father. He likely would have called himself Frankenstein as well.

It's Florida. Titusville.

And the courthouse was closed when I went there today because of the hurricane. Guess they don't have power yet.

The clerks office is closed too, and the website hasn't been updated and still says my court date is today.

I even tried calling the non-emergancy police number and they don't know. They told me to call the clerk on Monday. Which will be fine unless my court date is rescheduled for Monday at 9am when they open.

You aren't worthless and you can grow as a person thru lonely times.

It might've been easier for me going thru it as a teen. I was pulled from school and homeschooled, in the Texas countryside. I slowly lost every friend I had in school and there was literally no one else to talk to but my family.

I have a great family, but it wasn't a warm family. My mother was a very stern and logical woman and my father worked out of town a lot.

They both loved me, but my point is I spent years entirely alone.

I took walks and read books. It got easier.

Decades later I'm still kind of a loner but entirely by choice. As an adult I get flirted with and hit on often. I'm very careful about who I date because I don't need it. I'm fine being alone now, I only date someone if they are adding something to my life.

It gets easier being alone, you eventually start to prefer it.

There's no way I can deal with the fime immediately. That's kind of information is exactly what I was asking about...

I live paycheck to paycheck. I don't get paid again until next week.

They really expect people to pay the unknown fine immediately?

I'm housing insecure. I've always worked hard but it's never been "my place" it's always a roommate or girlfriend and I move around A LOT. Plus one of the symptoms of my ADHD is "time blindness" it's hard for me to judge how much time has passed between two events. That's why I didn't think about my license might be expired. 1 year, 7 years, 12 years... It all feels the same to me.

That's something to consider. I just don't want to seem like I'm being difficult to the judge.

Yeah,.even ignoring the joke comments that are funny, alot of people are saying I should fight. I doubt that would be a good idea. It was an honest mistake and I've got a clean record. I think being honest is my best bet.

I haven't renewed my license yet. In my state I have to take the written test again so two appointments at the DMV

Im also in retail management so between COVID call outs, holiday roll outs, and a hurricane... I haven't had a day off in months.

With this new solid advice, I had an idea and wanted to check with you.

When they call my name should I ignore it, as to not seem too desperate.

When they call my name again should I say "daaaaamn I heard you the first time! My license is expired not my hearing. Chill you're shit nigga" (to clarify I'm unambiguously white)

Glad I asked I had no idea. Do I need to make the hand motions when I get to "skeet skeet godamn"

I thought of that. I saw the viral video with that dude driving during his video court.

I was going to walk. It's a small town and I walk a lot as a hobby anyway.

Since I realized my license was expired I've been walking to work and to the store. Again it's a very small town and I can walk just about everywhere.

However if they are going to ask I might want some proof...no can't afford an Uber right now but maybe I could take some pictures of my walk? Or take the bus just to have a bus ticket?

How does that work In this situation tho? My license is expired and I was driving. How could I say not guilty? Wouldn't that just piss the judge off?