You basically just told my life story. I was one of those capital 'A' Atheists, made it part of my identity, for lack of an ideology. I was an obnoxious little shit. I read Dawkins and Hitchens. Religion was my enemy. Then I went to Japan, and visited Shinto and Buddhist shrines and temples, studied Islamic history and architecture in college. I learned to see great beauty in these cultures and religions, that religion wasn't inherently evil. When I found communism, I understood what my true enemy was. I still lack any faith in a god or follow any specific religion, but I do not like the atheist label any more. While I wouldn't call myself a Buddhist, I have found great passion in learning about it and incorporating aspects of it into my life. As the situation in Palestine has progressed, I have found myself having a lot of respect for Islam as I have been exposed to and learning about the resistance. On the day Lebanon was invaded, I found myself listening to a prayer that someone posted in the news thread, it brought me great comfort, and moved me to tears. I don't think I'm an atheist any longer, or rather feel completely alienated by that new-atheist community. It's frustrating, my new-atheist family member who was instrumental in forming my early beliefs, who taught me to "question everything" has stuck with it all these years, and has become quite reactionary and complains about woke and cheers on US imperialsm.

I would burn my Dawkins and Hitchens if I didn't think burning books was a crime. I keep them, they were an important part of my past, they started me questioning our society and beliefs, but they will gather dust. Those 2 creeps sicken me now, and I don't know how I ever swallowed so much of their crap for so long.

Elder Scrolls 6 is pretty easy to explain, they simply were not working on it, focused entirely on Starfield. That teaser from years ago was a distraction to make you think they were still working on it, and to get shareholders to shut up about them not putting out the next installment.

Big Boss practicing CQC circa 1964

"The enemy soldiers became distraught at the number of their dead and wounded and began screaming and wailing."