I almost forgot to do my injection today 
It is scary. It was scary for me too and those fears are something we’ve all gone through but it’s worth it to be yourself :meow-hug:
cw: autogynephilia dysphoria
Autogynephia isn’t real. There’s no actual evidence that the attracted to men/not attracted to men dichotomy isn’t entirely arbitrary and the whole theory doesn’t even make sense in the first place. Julia Serano has a very thorough take down of it but you need to know that it has been widely discredited even by the medical establishment for a while now and that it isn’t just “stupid” it’s fake. It’s literally just the same old parhologization of women’s sexuality that’s been going on for centuries but applied to trans women and blanchard was only able to briefly gain recognition because of how marginalized we are.
As for dysphoria, I’m sure people will tell you (correctly) that you don’t need to have dysphoria to be trans, but even ignoring that I don’t think dysphporia is a usefull way to think about being trans; dysphoria can manifest as many different things and can be hard to recognize, either because it’s something you haven’t considered, because it’s too subtle, or because, like a fish in water, it’s so omni present that you don’t even notice it. It’s very common for trans people to only realize that something was dysphoria after transitioning or to realize they had more dysphoria than they thought.
Instead of thinking in terms of dysphoria, think about what you want. Do you want to be a girl? If so, you’re trans. That’s all there is to it.
How bad is it that I accidentally injected a decent amount (0.01-0.05 ml) into my thigh? I switched needles after drawing the estrogen and forgot to push the air out. I stopped after I realized but I don’t know if any of the air came out
My tits really hurt. I guess this is just something that happens when I get a cold now
Edit: god this really feels like a monkey’s paw curse. Jokes on them though cause I can take it 
Edit 2: KITTY NO!! DONT STEP THERE!!! 
Yeah people forget that you can just use testing as a normal rolling release lol. But even then I don’t really care if most of my system is on the latest version or not. Like I don’t care if some random library or service that was installed as a dependency is a couple of releases behind upstream or whatever I just care that it works and that it does whatever it is that it’s supposed to do, and debian is really good at that and you still get all the bug fixes and security updates on stable anyway. Plus, if I actually want the latest version of something I can just get it from testing anyway
Yeah, I don’t use the women’s room because I’m still officially boymoding and I don’t think I pass but using the men’s room is getting to be really awkward. I try and go during class when it’s probably empty
spoiler
I can’t use urinals because of the d r i b b l e s
Getting both the flu and covid shots at the same time was probably a bad idea 
especially since I haven’t been feeling great anyway lately. My whole body aches and I have a fever
Debian is seriously underrated
It might be a good idea to call them and make sure you’re on their wait list or whatever. They’re probably just waiting to call you when they have a spot open but it can’t hurt to check. Also, diy isn’t as scary as it seems; it’s pretty straightforward
I keep getting nosebleeds and I wonder if I’m losing too much blood. I like genuinely feel a little lightheaded but I can’t tell if that’s because I’m sleep deprived and overworked
I must collect more datapoints
Chat, if a guy gives you a kiss is that a sign he likes you?
