I was learning Japanese and became aware how broken Japanese is
I used to write Wikipedia articles and blog posts about music if that counts.
It seems this person never existed, or died without telling me beforehand. Nobody's special.
In high school a female classmate asked me: "Do you masturbate?", and I answered "I don't need to answer you that." Well, I was actually uncomfortable by the fact that most people my age likely did, but I actually did not because I found masturbating disgusting. I thought they would think I was too odd for not masturbating lol
Never bought one, but I printed one in ~2018
Little potato when it is born
Spreads its branches on the ground
Little girl when she sleeps
Puts her hand on her heart
I am tiny
The size of a button
I carry daddy in my pocket
And mommy in my heart
The pocket got a hole
And daddy fell on the ground
Mommy who is the dearest
Stayed in my heart
and it takes quite a bit of willpower to snap out of it.
Just close your eyes and move your toes.
If your happiness comes first then it is because you are special.
I was going to write that, but left it out to not sound pretentious. Because I had no self love, I used to consider people who I loved special, but they ended up being incredible mean and detrimental to me. Even Christian Divine figures have disappointed me. So I learned the hard way the only special being to me should be myself.
No one's worth my wellbeing. My happiness comes first. Be self suficient for my own happiness. Nobody's special.
I think you're sabotaging yourself. Get an entry position in software engineering (not necessarily code, see management positions for example as well) since you can work in many different domains.
Didn't Russia say they would nuke Ukraine if they ever attack Russia?
When I found out my first love had been cheating on me for 2 months and began gaslighting me, guilt tripping me and gossiping lies, while I was just standing all that in silence. I was already going through very stressful situations as leader of 2 projects that were going downhill in work... I went manic/psychotic, and had a ton of panic attacks, went through disassociation and derealization a lot. I was able to save the projects tho. 1 month later I lost my best friend due to a stupid misunderstanding while manic/psychotic. I had major depression and generalized anxiety for 1 year. To this day I have trauma from all this.
I don't think it has to do with age. More like with your mental state and what you have gone through.