I know you are not calling me one. Its just that I consider it okay as long as I am self-aware and moderate the usage. I have trained myself enough to not become the thing I seek to destroy, if that reference makes sense. Its risky for most untrained people to take that road, though. Psyops are dangerous as fuck. Look at CIA agents who eventually go mentally ill.
Last time I checked self-awareness makes you more insane, not less. And the worst part is that you'll be completely oblivious to it all. Everyone around you will know and they'll keep it to themselves while you continue to spiral further and further down that rabbit hole.
Trust me, I have gone through a lot of things in life that might have ended up others in my place hanging themselves or going clinically irrecoverable. I sometimes feel very lucky to have faced so many challenges throughout my life, instead of wishing for a "normal" average life like others. Beautiful people are created after enduring defeat, suffering and hardships.