depression_now! @lemmy.world alyth @lemmy.world 3 mo. ago

Full Circle

Change up your routine. Find new hobbies. Meet new people. Learn new things. 2-6 weeks later, I feel once again that this is a complete waste of energy. Nothing I've ever done in my life has ever amounted to anything. I always return to this point. Just one more cycle, right? Just one more, haha? Just keep trying, right? This is all totally going to get better, right?

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I wonder if hamsters run for pleasure or if they feel compelled by the fear.
Please tell me it got better? I’m having a bad day, hoping something positive happened in yours.
- Hi Zerlyna!
  
  I really appreciate you commenting to check on me. It honestly made me feel very cared for and I'm immensely grateful - thank you!
  
  I'm very happy to report that life has gotten a lot better since I made this post.
  
  I stopped talking to and caring about my ex. When the relationship ended, I felt like I woke up in a new world which I hated at first, but now I've grown to love it.
  
  I made a very close friend. I used to think I could never trust anyone this deeply again. But it turns out I met a new person and we care about each other a lot. I really enjoy every exchange we have and I'm so glad that the feeling is mutual.
  
  I can hardly believe it - but I have a crush (a different person than 2). Like 2, she's also someone I met recently and our daily conversations are so fun and effortless. I'm expecting a no when I ask her out, but that's okay! Merely knowing that I'm capable of these feelings again shocked me.
  
  I'd been talking about interpersonal improvements so far, but for myself, I realized that I don't care about spending the rest of my life here anymore. I need to go on an adventure. I feel like I'm finally able to focus on spending the time I've been given on this earth on my own journey.
  
  To summarize, I think I'm finally learning the art of letting go and I'm building up meaningful relationships.
  
  That's enough yapping from me! I almost feel bad for talking this much about myself. I'm sorry to hear about your bad day. Please feel free to share if there is anything on your mind, you are always welcome to . If you'd rather not, that's just as fine and I genuinely hope that positive things are just around the corner for you too. Thanks again for your check-in and good wishes, I genuinely appreciate you a lot and wish you just the same.
  
  Fun and effortless is great!!! I forced myself out of bed, grabbed my kid and went shopping for their lunch snacks for the week. Stupid but got myself out of my head. I hope you have a great week. :)