3d ago

how's your week going, Beehaw

after snowing on and off all of yesterday, it is once again sunny here; unfortunately, this mostly just means ice everywhere because it's still freezing

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And now I have covid 🙄

Job hunting is brutal. Like soul sucking. Every time a website application refers me to Workday or another management system of AI filtered horsehit, I die knowing I probably missed something and will get auto rejected.
- You’re not alone. It’s rough out here looking for a job. Hope your luck turns around.
- It's been so bad for me too. I don't think the jobs numbers the Biden admin posted are accurate. Everyone I have talked to looking for work have been struggling. I've been looking for well over a year and a half. Always getting the ghost jobs.
- I swear they make applying for jobs annoying on purpose. It's like they actively don't want to hire anyone lol
  
  I was talking to my dad today. He's close to retirement and he was kinda reminiscing about his early days with his employer, the US fed govt, especially with all the shit lately.
  He told me the story again of how he got his first federal position. He went to some job fair in like 1990 after he finally finished his degree, and the guy manning the booth offered him a job on the spot. And the rest is history.
  I'm also a federal employee. It took me 15+ yrs of applying for numerous federal positions, having to do stupid aptitude tests online, or even in person -- I once flew across the country to literally sit for an ACT/SAT-type aptitude test, on my own dime -- all to get two interviews over that whole time period. It was only in 2023 that I finally got an offer, which I started like 5mo ago.
  Offer on the spot at a job fair? That's unheard of these days. I don't even see the point of going to job fairs anymore, since all they do is say, "just apply online!" The few I've been to in the past weren't even accepting resumes in person or doing any on-the-spot interviews. Then what's the point of this?
  And having sat on the "other side" of the table, helping conduct interviews, it's all shit. Not the candidates (well...sometimes), but the process. If the whole rigmarole is to help find and select better candidates, then it's not working. I'd rather pick a couple candidates, hire them on probation for 90 days, and evaluate them that way. Then let go of the less-performing one. Or both if neither are worth it. We'd be able to really evaluate them, while at least they'd maybe learn something and get paid.

It was OK I guess. Did some petsitting, made a little money, bought a new desk. Thought a less claustrophobic setup might help me get back into art. Then I read the news and I was like, literally who fucking cares? The chips in my drawing tablet are made by slaves and my PC is a tool for multiple spy companies. Countries I'll never visit are being decimated by capitalism to provide the fruits and veggies for my healthy diet that I'm supposed to eat to be less depressed.
The internet mocks me for calling my reps instead of overthrowing the government but none of them are overthrowing the government either.
This is selfish but I wish I'd die in a horrible accident so I at least don't continue being a cog in this machine.
- I'll overthrow it with you. <3

Generally, I'm starting to be skeptical about each seemingly positive event. They are fleeting, and then it's back to this insane hell. In theory, I've met another local vanlifer who wants to join forces to ease each others' burdens, but I'll believe that when I see it.

I replaced most of the lights in the basement, rewired stuff so it wasn't switched on the neutral leg anymore too (seriously, who does that?). Pretty sure I had to deal with some sort of FNG today, I was getting all sorts of weird questions. (Note: These are all standards, if someone at the level this dude is supposed to be at is asking these kinds of questions...um....yeah.)
"Hey, what the hell kind of security screw is this?"
"Um.....it's a Phillips #2, although if you push hard enough a Phillips #1 might also work."
Somehow, that wasn't the mist bizarre question out of someone who really should not have been asking questions like that today.
I did get my full wellness reward at work, so my wife and I used part of it to get new heart rate chest straps so that's kind of exciting.

Really bad. My health is deteriorating as there is something wrong with my brain and no medical 'professionals' are helping.
It is difficult to think, remember things and understand things.
- Jesus, I'm sorry. I hope you're able to find treatment.
  
  Thanks, nobody has really taken me seriously or seemed like it's a major worry when they have so I am having to wait 6 weeks before I can be looked at currently.

Things could be worse... not sure exactly how, but I bet they could. Last week got some flu again, breathing has been hard for the last few days, stopping to is tempting.

I managed to get zero hours of sleep last night... Wish me luck at work today!

Fighting hypervilgilance that wants me to keep track of all the new everywhere all the time, since I know that I'm as safe as I can be in the US and if something big happens I have lots of channels of information to find out about it. Just need to focus on my life and the little joys I can have, like making a cup of tea and enjoying this absurd song I heard that's kind of a dance club remix of a synthetic voice reading PR stuff about queer people? It's honestly great.

Horrible as usual, sorry for it being negative but you asked. Still stuck in my whole afraid to go outside, unable to get friends or anything around where I live. Just rotting inside bored AF.
- I feel you. This isn't the life we should have had, and it's deeply unfair that we have to live in it. I'm also just trying to live each day. <3
- I feel ya. I know it likely doesn't really help, but you're not alone. 💖
  
  Technically I am alone where I am. Been that way for a while but thanks though.
- what would need to change so that you would be less afraid?
  
  Really nothing can be done right now. Government wants me in a cage. Nobody in my state sees me as a human being. So I guess society as a whole needs to change?

Ugh. =)

We had snow and ice for a couple of days this past week and it's something I haven't seen for several years since moving farther south. So it was quite frankly crazy to see what we got here.
I am excited because in the next couple of days I should be getting my meshtastic node and it's the first time that I will be playing with meshtastic and so I'm really looking forward to it.

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