crying out into the abyss
This is gonna be really venty and whiny, sorry, I'm extremely bottled up so I'm blurting out whatever is on my chest right now, so I guess this is a venting post more then anything else.
TW for everything I guess, I don't know.
You're viewing a single thread.
Honestly just taking the step to vent, even on the internet can be a lot and is something worthwhile.
Your survival instincts are kicking in, even though you’re dealing with a situation stacked against you. That takes guts.
I’ve been in a situation not unlike yours, and yes you’re facing a lot of unfairness and yes a lot of advice is going to fall flat. I got out by sheer luck. I can only hope you get some opportunity to jump out of the hell you’re going through because it takes a massive toll.
That said, while quiet spite might not change your relationship with the bad people in your life (nothing probably will, while you’re stuck with them at least), it’ll keep you alive. Keep venting, keep finding the tiny escapes and maybe one day one will be big enough to get away from where you are and a bit closer to sanity.
You’re not crazy. It’s not you. I may just be an Internet stranger but you’re seen. Take the time you need to grieve and be angry and cry, and keep fighting for you.