This is gonna be really venty and whiny, sorry, I'm extremely bottled up so I'm blurting out whatever is on my chest right now, so I guess this is a venting post more then anything else.

TW for everything I guess, I don't know.

::: spoiler spoiler I can't ever find help, I can't ever catch a break, I'm never enough, I'm never allowed to be happy, I'm always judged and bashed, I'm always gaslit and abused by everyone and everything around me, nothing I do ever matters or is enough for people, I'm never ever perfect enough no matter how hard I try, I'm forced to suffer and rot and I have to just accept it and shut up, I'm expected to be a psychic and know everything about everything and somehow magically cure myself and fly to the moon like superman, oh what's that? You need more then "pull yourself up by your bootstraps" to work with? No, fuck you, your a loser and a leech to society, nobody will ever talk to you again lol. it's been driving me fucking insane - it's hopeless, thi