I'm sorry for posting actual self-help, it's not my intention to be toxic, but your mention of "first draft" has triggered a kind of fixed action pattern in me, where I am compelled to share this axiom that I find reassuring: The first draft is always perfect.
You're good. I didn't think you were, just know that self-help can be toxic, so didn't want anyone to think I was actually advocating for rah rah bootstraps manifest this mind over matter that, etc
This actually made me feel bettee. I have to print this on my wall so when my elaborate idea doesnt turn out perfect on first try I can remember it's not supposed to be perfect