When my meds and life are just right, everything is tight and aligned and organized and on time and happy. I think it's both something I enjoy but also engage in when happy. As that balance starts to waiver, sometimes it is the obvious "I hate this routine is off" can be the "this is my happy routine and I hate that I have to alter or even do it less than ideally"
AuDHD sounds like being in hell. Like... I feel like I am constantly at war with myself but being autistic on top of having ADHD sounds 100× more exhausting