because of the laws and privacy, mostly. i guess i need to rephrase myself: server should not be based in USA, that is. i just feel safer this way :D hope i word it fine...
thank you for kind words T_T
Does your partner have a problem with you not working?
no, not at all. they're also autistic, and they know how it feels. so it's all kinda... my projections, mostly. i know i'm not a burden for them, but i still feel like it.
thank you for sharing, it gives me hope!
I don’t know whether you’re dealing with other disability besides autism
also ADHD and depression. in times when my meds were more helpful i felt like i'm ready to start? but it was like... 3 years ago? since then, many bad things happened, and i didn't really feel good all these years. :(
hey. quick disclaimer: this post isn't for job advices or recommendations, but mostly about dealing with being disabled & unemployed.
sometimes i feel pathetic i can't find a job. and even more: i've never really had a job. volunteering, trading? yes, plenty of times. but the job? like, never. nothing about money, even if freelance. not even mentioning something "official".
sometimes i even lie to people i have a job. without details or vaguely. or about job i am technically did: art or coding or gamedev for fun or trade. i feel ashamed of being like this. i feel like a burden for my partner i live with.
genuinely, i want to have work. i'm not idealistic about this, nor pessimistic. i'm not going to work in places i can't hadle at all (social). but i really want to work. like, i already know how commissions work. i have some desires of creating something & being payed for it. or even go to the army (Ukrainian moment).
but i can't right now. i'm already 24 y.o., and i feel like there is something wrong with me.
is there anybody with the same problems? or maybe, someone who's dealing with it better than i am? i am open for advice or just listen to your experience.
thanks for reading.
evil wizard @ttrpg.network just an old wizard, trying to find a place in community. eh.