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Things have been up and down for me. In a glum mood today. Been hanging out with someone new, and that's been nice, I'm just not sure if I really want to keep it up. Home life is....fine, I guess. Still living with my ex, they're gonna give things until the end of the year to see if their career picks up any, and if not, they'll move home. That said, they've been talking about that for years, so I'll believe it when I see it. They broke down and finally yelled at me for the first time a few nights ago, so I silently carved a pumpkin and then just stayed over with the person I've been seeing. As nice as the couch I live on is, it was nice to sleep in a bed for a night or two this past week.
Job front is slow moving, but I had a promising interview last Wednesday. Was supposed to hear back Thurday afternoon or Friday, but even with a followup email I sent, no reply. Fingers crossed I guess.
I deleted a few of my dating apps, still have a small amount installed. A Maoist actually hollered at me this morning and wants to take me to an arcade. Not sure I have the energy though. Other people are asking me for dates, but I'm just...not replying. I should go do that now so I don't leave them hanging.
On a brighter note, 9 day tour coming up in 2 weeks, so that's cool! Without giving away too much (y'all know my band anyways and have seen my face), I'll be going around the midwest. We've been doing well on selling merch the past few months, so that money should be sufficient to cover the tour. Also, we'll have a roadie for the first time!
I'll end it here I guess. Hope all my comrades are well, and I love you!
I'm barely holding on. I've been dealing with legal issues that have dragged on for over a year, and it might end pretty fucking badly for me.
I'm losing my mind, stressing the fuck out. I've had to explain to my boss that I'm struggling pretty fucking bad after a mental breakdown and now the vibes are weird at work.
Usually the only thing that helps me, is smoking weed, but if I get tested, it's all over for me, so I try not to smoke. I'm super mega fucked and i don't know what to do if I get locked up and lose my apartment, my personal items and memories.
I will probably have to euthanize my pet as the only one I know who can take care of it lives on the other side of the country.
All because of a fucking mistake I did three years ago. I legit didn't know what I did was illegal. Fuck my life holy shit.
My only hope is that the judge will throw out my case because of how long this shit has been dragging out. Otherwise, my lawyer says I might get up to three months.
I might be okay if I get a single month off. I've saved up some vacation days and might get through it without losing my job and home.
But three? No way I'm getting my job back and I'll have no idea what will happen with my bills, my debts and my dear pet.
This shit has tortured me for over a year. I'm so fucking tired.
Other than that, I just finished reading Moby Dick. Shit's pretty cash.
I just bought graeber's Dawn of Everything. Can't wait to get started on it.
On the positive side, everything will pass, and so will this shitty situation. I know that no matter how bad shit gets, I'll get through it.
I don't own anything expensive, my car and apartment are the cheapest I could find. It's not like it would be difficult to get back on my feet again, should I lose everything.
It's just the constant waiting that is killing me.