apparently he had gallbladder surgery, and then scrawled a suicide note on a movie ticket and jumped out of a window. people are commenting that they had similar feelings after their own gallbladder surgeries?
When I had my gall bladder out I felt a great sense of relief and liberation that lasted months. For 10 years, once or twice a week, I'd had sudden intense pain that lasted hours, and now it was over.
Also had a great sense of relief when mine was taken out. That wonderful absence of that particular pain was exquisite! There was other pains instead, but those pains had things that improved their symptoms while the gallbladder pain was otherwise untouchable by meds. My gallbladder had 3% working rate before it was removed.
At the height of the pandemic, I was admitted to a hospital after a worse one had sent me home. I was delirious with pain, and was allowed no visitors. Once I got pain meds, I was confused from them. I couldn't eat or drink anything, including water. It took them a week to determine that I needed my gallbladder out (some shortage with their nuclear medicine unit), and by then I was apparently also septic. Due to a mixup with my pain meds, it took an extra day to get into surgery. I missed giving the elegy for my father in law, and the whole episode is just a fuzzy kaleidoscope of pain. This was one year after fighting for days to get a kidney stone removed surgically, only to wake up in recovery with another one that no one would believe me about for another week, then having a stent for a month.
I can fully understand jumping out a window in desperation.