My true self seems to only exist on the internet. I want to be me in meat space, too, but I just lock up most of the time and become completely non-verbal all the while I am aware of it and screaming inside my head to just do this, or say that the way I would on a comment or a chat room.
It comes with age ... when you are young, you do things to impress others ... when you get a bit older, you do things to look respectable ... when you get a lot older and death is getting closer, you don't care anymore and say and do whatever you like