Is it weird that what most people consider attractive and what I consider attractive are usually completely different.
[CW: is this body shaming? I'm not sure.]
I genuinely find "conventionally attractive" people (like celebrities), well, kind of ugly IMO.
This is particularly evident when you look at game mods where people can create what they consider to be the most attractive characters their imagination allows. I find most of them grotesque even. Exaggerated forms.
Che Guevara though, Che Guevara was hot. So maybe I like some conventionally attractive looks. But you know what I mean. I don't like muscle men or hyper feminine women. I prefer androgyny almost.
I feel like it's a blessing. If you like exactly what 80% of the people find attractive, they'll be lots of you liking the very few who have this quality. I feel like conventionally attractive people (especially conventionally attractive women) have this problem, as they're hit on all the time. It just seems unfun for everyone that's part of it.
The conventionally attractive white men who I meet have the worst fucking opinions, so I think that anyone who isn't into them is really lucky.
I don't know if it'll work for you, but I used to have this problem. When I saw myself attracted to a posh looking person (which normally is strongly associated with conventionally attractive), I'd make an effort to look for something to hate in them. And usually it was there, and I'd be able to move on from that situation without wasting my time and energy by having a crush on them.