After hearing of the last psychologist I found not taking new clients, I went through the whole process of finding another one with a trustworthy and empathetic face (yes I judge people entirely off of their face. Don't @ me), getting a new MHCP, getting a new referral, making another appointment, trying to organise for the session to be paid in advance again. I'm finally done, and have found one that seems fine. I hope it works out. I don't want to have to find yet another one
I’ve had a weirdly positive day… I mean, a little unexpected. Even though I was running late, I made good time. Even though I missed tea break, had a shortened lunch, wasn’t all that hungry and ran out of time (and verbally road raged a little on the way home), I:
- made it to a Uni appointment
- had some meaningful conversations in intervention deliveries
- made it to my extra-curricular session on time
- had some more meaningful conversations
And just all round one of those days where for a moment you feel as if you’ve woken up, are about 95% yourself and things feel somewhat good… like a distant memory.
I’m even in one my fav burger shops that is always empty and there are about 8 or so other people eating in and it feels… nice.
No guarantees for tomorrow, but I think being grateful for just even the ability to even get out of bed is underrated. ✨
Fell asleep for a bit, but have a GP appt tomorrow morning. I'm trying not to get overly anxious about this, because it's probably nothing, but its such a different pain than I am used to.
Like, sharp, and then achey, and sharp if I rub my eyes (which I do without thinking). I have no idea what I could have done to it, like it's a weird spot. Just under my right eye, where the orbital hole ends, on my cheekbone. I know I keep posting, but I'm anxious ugh!!!!
I have a big preso tomorrow. To about 100 attendees. I have to talk for about 10-12 mins and I'm prepared. It's just that I get so nervous my heart starts pounding crazy fast.
My previous presos have also been in front of the same crowd but that was for like 2-3 mins as I had someone share the time but tomorrow am all alone. Which means that I need to take questions as well.
My heart rate is already high thinking of tomorrow 🤕 can someone give me some tips to calm down? Please don't say slow breathing because it just makes it worse for me 😭
I've also been told I give great presos but I gaslight myself into thinking it was bad. I've prepared pretty well but still nervous as shit as this is the biggest one so far.
Am off to the gym now to take mind off things and just relax. I'll go crazy otherwise
Man I love my cat. She’s just a big old teddy bear and a sweetheart. Even when she’s a bit spoiled it’s cute
Dropped off the transfer of shares papers to the executor of my grandma’s will today.
I wanted to mail them off so I didn’t have direct contact with the executor but it wasn’t to be.
Drove out of my way and got stuck in a one sided conversation I didn’t really want a part of due to the family feud going on between the executor who is my Aunty and half the family which consequently made me get home later as well.
Hopefully with that out of the way the distribution of the will can go ahead.
Parts of my family suspect that the Aunty has an unfair share of the will or has been stealing or misappropriating funds related to the will. She dumps all her emotional baggage on me because she considers me the nice one of the family but all I wanted to do was run away from her.
Have we entered the era of peak fake?
- instagrammers with enhanced images
- fake bodies pumped full of Botox, fillers, steroids or maybe even all three.
- scammers pretending to be someone else, even your own bank.
- deepfakes
- autotune and pitch correction.
- so called live performances with pre recorded audio (yes Celine I'm looking at you)
- people living their fake lives in social media making out it's better than it really is.
- Politicians telling anything but the truth.
Today's song
tried to book a camping trip for cup day weekend. Limited to "glamping" (ie: power and a hot shower) cause I was gonna bring the little fella, but no joy. Everythings booked out. Prom, Eildon, Bright, Philip Island, all totally booked out. The fact that it's still months away and its booked out blows my mind.
omg, I have finally cleared all 50 levels of bubble town. it only took a few years and many thousands of attempts. I took a screen shot. I'm a bit numb...lol
My monday morning activities fell through, so now I'm just tired. I don't know whether to go back to sleep for a bit, or stay up. If I stay up, I'll be cranky by tea time. If I sleep, I run the risk of missing packages (I know I have at least 1 coming)
I finally heard back from the school lady (I'm a bit concerned with how many times I've had to follow up), and she fixed the issues with the enrolment paperwork, which I've now signed!
For some classic bureaucracy related reasons, they need a photocopy of a guardians personal identification. Probably going to be a difficult thing to obtain when my guardian is the secretary of DFFH. But as of now, that's no longer a me problem, that's something they'll all have to work out together.
It's....
A non issue though, as I've been through this process dozens of times. Usually they just provide a copy of my court order and a stat dec and it's all g. But it's worth noting if you ever decide to run an organisation and impose restrictions you can't possibly foresee anybody not being able to meet, you'll eventually meet somebody you'll have to make an exception for 🤷♂️
Round 2 of using the vegetable and tomato paste. This time with frozen pesto, frozen green veg, and canned springwater tuna mixed with pasta. Another win, definitely added an extra depth of flavour without tasting tomatoey for very little cost and effort. I will say I'm also proud of my little habit of chucking in some cardamom seeds to pasta or other non Indian dishes. It adds a certain je ne sais quoi.
Pretty good meal for zero prep. Cost about 3.32 a serve minus the homemade pesto, and most of that would've been the tuna and Fancy Expensive Pasta
My tv has died. I guess I don't need to watch the gymnastics after all, I'll read my book. But boo. I'll deal with it tomorrow.
Taking Belsomra tonight for my sleep. Scared of waking up like a zombie and not being able to drive. But we shall see. Hopefully I'm fine
TV review. Archer Series 13.
I loved Archer, the first 2 series made me laugh out loud so often and many of the following episodes also had their laughs.
Series 13 is a pale ghost of a show comprising running jokes, boring character repeating one liners they've said a hundred times and vulgarity for no reason. A vulgar joke is funny, these aren't even jokes.
So sad. 1/2 a whisky, no ice.
I've been playing Red Dead Redemption 2 a lot. It's my first playthrough, but 3rd time attempting to get into this game.. it's actually sticking this time though and I'm 35% through now. Enjoying it. It's crazy how many hours I've put in and it says I'm only 35% this game is hooooge.
Anyway the game is absolutely GORGEOUS. Playing on my PC with the graphics almost maxed out and riding around has made me desperately miss America's parks and mountains. I ache to go back there. I don't think we have anything in Australia which directly compares to that place, as unpatriotic as that sounds.
Also I found out that my tablet runs RDR2 fantastically (it's a stupidly expensive one with it's own discreet graphics card) so I can actually play it in bed too. It's not as gorgeous on that as on my 4k monitor with HDR but it still looks and plays great using my PS5 controller.
There was no Solensia in stock - Miss meow might have to go to a different practice that has some.
I may also be switching her in future to a more expensive food that is lower in phosphorus. 😖 Waiting for the blood test to come back
Listening to the soundtrack of The Mandalorian. I'd forgotten what a beautiful show it is so might take another look. ( and at The Orville as well 😊 )
I have to send something overseas and last time I did it I could generate the details online and AusPost could scan the QR code it created so I dont have to fill in the customs form, but I can't find that on their website anymore.
Would anyone happen to know where I might find it?
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