Conspicuous lack of mention of 2 here

how do you not just completely fall into despair living as a vulnerable minority in the United States at this moment. what does a future even look like

more and more I realize my problem is americans and this specific cultural blight, not just any particular generation of them. I will never be at peace here. I can only hope I will mesh better anywhere else in the future.

Real world is extremely hostile to my continued existence on many axes. Here there is only a coin flip chance one will be, usually.

If you’d like to play over online sim and maybe make a (cute, cool, nice) new friend feel free to ping me @itsmiaomiao:matrix.org

With the way power creep tends to go in games like this I think draft is the only truly fair way to play. It flexes every muscle the game has and I love it dearly. I like commander very casually but I agree it is not usually for me. I live in a super competitive area that I don’t have the resources nor desire to keep up with anymore so even constructed formats in-person I find a waste of time often; I keep those to mtgo leagues or arena just because it’s cheaper. I always do limited events if I go to anything physically these days.

I haven't played in a minute but I used to do pauper 5c tron in mtgo leagues years ago, the meta is so much faster now and there have been a couple of bans that have hurt it. Prismatic Prism and Bonder's Ornament are gone. Tolarian terror decks can have a 5/5 out very early and tron decks are just too slow to keep up. Lots of artifact hate going around. Red decks apparently main Cleansing Wildfire these days...many such cases. I am told some mono green variants can still do some stuff but tron is definitely falling off.

I love magic- I am a modern, pauper & legacy (sometimes) player, usually- but I have made an effort recently to not use Discord when I can help it. Let me know if there's any want for a Matrix space or something and I'm in.

I remember reading an analysis I liked from somewhere a few years ago saying that this phenomenon is because the "old money" of the 19th/early 20th century who knew where their value came from (the labor/exploitation of the working class & the third world) and how it related to class warfare and their position in it have all died out, and now all that's left are "true believer" heirs and sycophants of that old money who don't actually know where any of their surplus value comes from. To me, anyway, that may explain why everything is so much more nonsensical these days from the wealthy/ruling classes.

Only so many times a sail can get winded before the ship goes down. If you can do it more power to you, but I’m sunk.

I keep trying to do the dataannotation one because I can do programming but they keep making me unable to do the assessments and won't respond to my support tickets. I've made like two separate accounts there and this has happened to both of them (very cool)

If this is a different one I'd like to bite. Bonus points if I can do programming stuff on it

I won’t defend it

proceeds to defend it

This has been what I assume is a reclamation effort but I am still a bit wary of it. That word was the calling card of abuse back when I was growing up closeted so if that is what's going on I don't want to harsh the kids' mellow but I'm not in any hurry to take it back.

The middles aren't really either. I can't speak to the youngs, but they're probably fucked up too.

They are all like this. All of them. I've given up. I can't keep trying to organize my workplaces and every single time having my coworkers say shit like "I hope we start WW3 and kill all the Russians! mimicking machine gun fire"- a real quote from a guy I worked with years ago. Minimum wage.

Took a walk with someone I worked with on our lunch break in 2018, a homeless guy barely starts walking toward us in the parking lot and dude literally loses his mind, starts screaming and acting like we're being attacked by a bear or some shit. "GO AWAY. NO. NO!" until the homeless guy, rightfully shocked, bolted. Just unbelievable stuff.

I have more. It doesn't matter what we do. They won't listen when I talk to them. America and Americans are the devil and its little imps, and I can't handle trying for them anymore.

if the soundtrack isn't by shimomura i will be upset

This article's headline (and that one it links at the beginning, ugh...) is sort of exemplary of what the biggest problem was.

GIMP's 'Woke' Fork Glimpse is Getting Discontinued

Never once was it advertised as this lmfao. There are tickets as far back as at least a decade that mention changing the name, and the official response of the GIMP maintainers is always "fork it if you want, we're not changing it upstream". So someone finally does that and...well, apparently it's woke or something, what's the big deal, how dare you, etcetera. Clown shit.

I actually spoke to Bobby Moss myself sometime last year about reviving this thru another fork that I would maintain and from what I remember it sounded like people were were very passionate and excited about the original project and were ready to devote time to it. The non-code labor was brought up as an issue, but it seemed to me the far, far bigger problem was the responses to it being totally bonkers hostile for something so innocuous as a forked project...he made very clear that what I would be adopting was years of baggage and that they still got sent harassment and threats about it for ever having existed. I never wound up doing it, but I still think about it sometimes. The whole story is such crap and makes me see red every time I think about it. The free software movement's reputation can be a little unfairly exaggerated from the less-involved crowd for all the important work that's done (imo), and then this shit happens and I remember, "yep, you're all still a bunch of dumbass self-important children all right." Just infuriating.

Adobe is allowed to do this in large part because Photoshop is the most pirated software in existence, fwiw. So I wouldn’t say “the pirates win again” because, well, no one is winning except for Adobe, here. Do what you need to do- I use Macs for work that I don’t pay for…I’m not going to say it’s some sort of moral or material victory, though. I’m still using the Mac and all the baggage that comes with. We all know the answer to “what is to be done?” in this sphere and it is varying levels of cope to pretend otherwise.

Glimpse tried and got harassed out of the scene because we can never have nice things made by nice people. I am still very upset about it.