All I was really looking for was what was true, no matter how many layers I had to peel away or what I might find. I came to it only after decades of finding other explanations lacking. What other scientific socialisms are there, and do they have anywhere near the explanatory or predictive power that historical materialism has?
Yeah, it's half "I actually have a grasp of this stuff and am no longer flailing around in the dark." and the other half is "oh god, the people around me are so smug and proud about flailing around in the dark and would sooner cut out my eyes to force me to join them than actually turn on a light themselves."
I always compare life before studying the eternal science to that feeling when you forget that you left the fan on over the stove. There’s just this nagging anxious feeling that doesn’t go away. Then when you shut the fan off there’s still a mess in the kitchen but atleast you can fucking think!
We figured out that working together makes a nation stronger faster
than living under a system that kicks people to the curb or kills them outright
just because another group of people deem them inferior and a threat to their position.
And most often these same people also sycophantically and pathetically
suck up to other people that they deem absolutely superior
and more civilized to their position, no matter what they do or how absurd.
We are disgusted by the above behavior of in one way or another.
Either their ruthlessness, their hypocrisy or their sycophantic behavior,
while still somehow thinking that they are better and more civilized than others.
We followed and notice the disconnected changing narrative
of economic policies over time and notice that the real rules are:
"Free market and no handouts" for thee and
"infinite economic security" for us elite.
We followed and notice the disconnected changing narrative
of election policies over time and notice that if you live in a "(liberal) democracy",
as branded by the US, that all the most policies are decided
by Wall Street oligarchs, even if you're a citizen of France or Japan.
We followed and notice the disconnected changing narrative
of a violent political event over time by your local media
and then try to figure out what else you've been lied about
and notice a running theme of issue #1/2 on a global scale,
of all "democracies".
If you're a citizen of one of these "liberal democracies"
and looked towards "nationalists" to address issue #4,
we have followed and noticed that these "nationalists"
that complain about "globalism" are just "globalist racists"
that consider issue #3, #4 and #5 to be a failure of the system in issue #1,
that is to say, they're being surpassed by a group of "inferior" people
and that this group of people has to be killed outright immediately,
before they pose any further threat.
Correct me if I'm wrong or whether Im missing something.
I already had a good grasp on reality before becoming a communist by looking at things more scientifically, but having a proper understanding of and giving more emphasis to class struggle was a huge boost to my understanding of society. It was also nice knowing there were ideas/systems more advanced than what I had come up with as pretty much nothing that came out of pro-capitalism writings and media was any good.